future...

confusing.
exciting.

terrifying.
CONFLICTING.
liberating.
__________.
undefined.
full of debt.
nurtured.
determined?
job?
school?
Russia?
Dance?
language.
travel.
friends=married.
me=nomad?
US?

future...
i want to surrender, but i don't know how.
i don't know where or when or what.
i don't know.

please turn the confusion into surrender.
please turn the questions into answers.
please turn the blanks into direction.
please turn my heart toward yours.
please help my stretched out mind to focus.
please help my wayward soul to know its course.
even if only one step ahead.
please help me to be content in that.
please help me to be thankful.
please help me to surrender.
please help me to know.
please help me to trust.
please help me to seek.
please help me to take it.
please help me to never give up.
please help me to LIVE.
please help me to walk in your Word.
please help me to listen to your Spirit.
please help me to dance and sing.
please help me to know how.

future...

"in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them..." ps. 139:16
"let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for IN YOU I TRUST. make me know THE WAY I SHOULD GO, for TO YOU i lift up my soul... teach me to do your will, for you are my God! let your good Spirit lead me on level ground!" ps. 143:8,10

protected.
enough.
provided.
amen.