in absence of feeling literary...

don't have much eloquence today, but i AM supposed to be studying for a Russian test, so naturally i DO have an impetus for writing at least a little blurb.


i think i actually may not get an A on my Russian test tomorrow.  that's probably good for me.
why did i just now discover listening to Russian talk radio? coulda helped me a lot.


starting my Tuesday mornings with Toni each week is a MAJOR blessing in my life.  this particular Tuesday was made even better by getting to share it with Amie as well.


prayer is really powerful.  and important.  and necessary.  more than you know.


my interviewing stuff is over for Fulbright and CLS and now i just have to wait.  i'm SO ok with that.


my show is literally in a week - that caught me off guard in more ways than one.  also, the subject matter is a little intense.  each day i go in and become a lifer under maximum security, i wonder if the role i'm playing is ok, or if it's just that i'm getting desensitized to the fact that it's not a good reflection of who i am. when portraying the depravity of sin without offering redemption, is it possible that the audience will go so far as to draw a righteous conclusion? i'm not so sure.  i'm also not so sure for specific reasons.  hope that conversation goes okay.


if you haven't listened to either Running in Circles by United Pursuit Band or You Have Me by Gungor, you should.


im just now starting to clue in to what i've graciously been hearing lately - that while i am indeed nothing and can offer the equivalent of... <really> filthy rags as far as serving the King of the universe goes, the same Spirit who created the world and wrote the Bible lives within me.  oh, please help me to listen and obey.  to sit at your feet, to let you speak instead of taking over.  you know the hearts and struggles of myself and those with whom i do life.  you know what they need, what i need.  


oh yeah, and hey - i'm thankful.  it's good.  it's a lot  more REAL than i thought, which is both complicated and genuine and challenging, but it's worth it, regardless of the result.


ok.  now i should go and really try to grasp a slight understanding of the usage of perfective and imperfective verbs.  WHY do i have to purvey facebook for 2 hours and get coffee before i get settled?  i'm thinking real life will not be so forgiving or flexible... buuut then again... this one right now's all i've got, so i should go.


stream of consciousness much?